Mandira Bedi gets emotional as she opens up about her husband’s death, ‘I think of him every day’

Bedi said, "One thing I still can’t do, is that I can’t listen to Kishore Kumar music.”

Mandira Bedi’ husband Raj Kaushal passed away in 2021 due to a heart attack. Since then, the actor has preferred to not speak publicly about her loss. However, recently, for the first time, Bedi opened up about Kaushal’s passing and her coping.

In an interview Bedi said that she has processed the loss slightly so she can at least now talk about it publicly, which is what she had been avoiding since 3 years. She said that she couldn’t talk about her husband without breaking down for the longest time. But now she is ready to reveal how much Kaushal meant to her and her children.

She said, “The only way out is through. Of course, my children and I think of him every day. It’s not like we’ve forgotten him. The first year was very, very, very, very hard. The first of everything is just impossible to deal with. The first birthday, the first anniversary, the first Diwali, the first Christmas, the first New Year. The second one is a little bit easier, the third one is a little bit easier…”

“There are moments when we remember him because of a song. I’ve done the therapy I’ve needed to, there are times I still do it. As human beings, we are always a work in progress… What I can do now is talk about it. It makes me emotional, but I can. There was a time I couldn’t. But I won’t break down… I started working two months after it happened… I have to support my family and myself. I need to do it for my children,”she added with tears in her eyes.

Bedi admitted that there are some things she still finds difficulty in doing, “It’s been six years that I’ve had his car. And I have to sell it now. I’d been holding onto it for emotional reasons, and now I’m going to shed a tear when it goes. So, it’s a work in progress. I’ve dealt with the bulk of it, but for the rest of my life, I’ll always grieve him. One thing I still can’t do, is that I can’t listen to Kishore Kumar music.”